Irreplaceable...

6 syawal 1432H...

It felt almost same like other days. Never expect anything unusual. During my sleep, I felt shivers... It must came from the strong wind outside. I pulled my blanket and suddenly felt a bit shocked and look at the clock. 3.35 am. Its time for subuh prayer...

After that I snuggled back to bed... I was so sleepy that I didn't realize anything as I lay my head on the pillow...until I felt as if someone was in the house... I heard footsteps coming to the room. I heard soft breathing but I just couldn't turn my head as I was too scared. Is this for real or is it just a dream... I kept asking to myself, I tried to touch my love's arm but I just couldn't, I wanted to whisper to him... To tell him that I'm scared. Tried and tried but I just couldn't until I heard the footstep move away from the room.

Suddenly I heard the phone rang... I am still figuring out whether it was just a dream. It kept ringing for the second time so I reached for the phone and saw my sister's name appeared at the screen. I felt a hard thump at my chest. It's 6.30 am meaning 5.30 am in Malaysia.

"hello" i said in half asleep tone...
"dik.." my sister paused... (dik stands for adik as I am the youngest in the family so does my love that's why we are both super duper manja and stubborn...
"mama nak cakap"
And I heard mama whispered "macam mana nak cakap?" oh no is it about abah? I felt like crying. But then I heard abah's voice "Biar saya cakap" my heart still beating faster, I looked at my love who was still sleeping.
"abah nak bgtahu ayah mi masuk hospital di unit kecemasan"
I told my love and he quickly took his phone. No wonder his brother cannot reached him as the phone was dead... He called twice but failed and he tried to call his sister in law... I put my chin on love's shoulder to hear the conversation. I heard she was crying. And I heard she said "ayah dah tak ada" her voice trembled, I was really shocked to hear about the news. Tears starts to fill my eyes. My father in law doesnt have any serious illness, only last year during ramadhan he had quite a terrible gastric but this year alhamdulillah the fasting month went smooth for him.

My love took it so calm and I cannot figure out what he felt right now. But he seems quieter, thinking about many things I supposed. Both of us have a deadline to submit our papers. My sensei is waiting within this week but we have to do what we have to do... Selamatkanlah perjalanan pergi dan balik kami...

Ya Allah tempatkahlah ayahanda kami di kalangan orang beriman... Al- fatihah...
To my love, be strong my dear...